wife, mom, scrapbooker.

Thursday, July 14, 2005


Well folks, I've moved on to Typepad. :) My new blog is HERE.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

11 pounds...

11 pounds have changed me from an optomistic little (or not so) pregnant woman to an insecure, fat calorie-counting maniac.

i can't believe i gained 11 pounds in 6 weeks...
i know i'm pregnant..but still..
i have stretch marks where they weren't (ahem rear)...
my boobs have reached DD already...

i know i'm supposed to be lovin' this pregnancy and not CARING about stuff like weight...like i vowed to do...BUT..i can't help it. :( only 13 more weeks...

i just hope i can get rid of this weight as easily as i've been able to in the past.
OH..and my doctor has informed me that he will NOT be doing an early c-section. he will be out of town for a week before my due date, and seeing as my due date is a saturday, i will have to wait until the coming monday (assuming the hospital has room) for my c-section. let me just say...my daughter was born a week early...and was 9 1/2 lbs. i am scared what a full term baby might be...yikes.

have a good day! (or at least try after reading my DOWNER of a post.. ;) )

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

I used the new Chatterbox Sunroom papers here... :)

Saturday, July 09, 2005


I did this layout last night (really simple, for me)...for some reason I couldn't get the title I wanted it to have to work for me. I worked on this sucker for a good 3 hours to get it "acceptable" in my eyes. (My own worst critic, as always) Anyway, the pictures are BLECH (Can we say, NO makeup? ICK!), but it's really the journaling that I want to talk about. It's about the neverending battle I fight to get myself to QUIT trying to please everyone all the time; to be myself, to allow people to like/love/hate me for who I am. I've touched on the subject before in a previous blog entry so I won't go into it too much, but I will say that it's a way of living that is VERY hard to change. Just when I feel like I've made progress, I find myself slipping, saying "yes" to something I'd rather say "no" to...forcing passion about something that, in reality, doesn't affect me...

You know what, though? I may slip, fall, and get up often. But I really am confident that I will be able to overcome this; that I'll triumph, win the battle. :) Just gotta keep tryin'!