wife, mom, scrapbooker.

Thursday, July 14, 2005


Well folks, I've moved on to Typepad. :) My new blog is HERE.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

11 pounds...

11 pounds have changed me from an optomistic little (or not so) pregnant woman to an insecure, fat calorie-counting maniac.

i can't believe i gained 11 pounds in 6 weeks...
i know i'm pregnant..but still..
i have stretch marks where they weren't (ahem rear)...
my boobs have reached DD already...

i know i'm supposed to be lovin' this pregnancy and not CARING about stuff like weight...like i vowed to do...BUT..i can't help it. :( only 13 more weeks...

i just hope i can get rid of this weight as easily as i've been able to in the past.
OH..and my doctor has informed me that he will NOT be doing an early c-section. he will be out of town for a week before my due date, and seeing as my due date is a saturday, i will have to wait until the coming monday (assuming the hospital has room) for my c-section. let me just say...my daughter was born a week early...and was 9 1/2 lbs. i am scared what a full term baby might be...yikes.

have a good day! (or at least try after reading my DOWNER of a post.. ;) )

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

I used the new Chatterbox Sunroom papers here... :)

Saturday, July 09, 2005


I did this layout last night (really simple, for me)...for some reason I couldn't get the title I wanted it to have to work for me. I worked on this sucker for a good 3 hours to get it "acceptable" in my eyes. (My own worst critic, as always) Anyway, the pictures are BLECH (Can we say, NO makeup? ICK!), but it's really the journaling that I want to talk about. It's about the neverending battle I fight to get myself to QUIT trying to please everyone all the time; to be myself, to allow people to like/love/hate me for who I am. I've touched on the subject before in a previous blog entry so I won't go into it too much, but I will say that it's a way of living that is VERY hard to change. Just when I feel like I've made progress, I find myself slipping, saying "yes" to something I'd rather say "no" to...forcing passion about something that, in reality, doesn't affect me...

You know what, though? I may slip, fall, and get up often. But I really am confident that I will be able to overcome this; that I'll triumph, win the battle. :) Just gotta keep tryin'!

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

The object of our affections...

He's officially six months old today! HOW did that happen?! He's sitting up, rolling around, eating like a champ...growing up too fast! Jake is one spoiled little dude! Being the youngest member of the family, that's to be expected. I thought Ally would be jealous of all the attention he'd be getting, but she's been great. She adores him. We all adore him. What a cutie! He makes me not-so-anxious about having a boy. I hope my little Jackson will be as sweet and smooshy and cuddly as this little monkey boy. Happy half year, Jakey-boy! :)

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Mommy in training?

I walked in to the living room just a few minutes ago. Ally was feeding her "baby Maddie" a pretend bottle of juice. "All done!" she said, then lifted her dress. "Time for milk now." Well! She "feeds" her baby, with the most serious of faces. Nursing a plastic baby is serious business, don't you know? ;)

Ally is very observant...she watches every move of her littlest cousin, Jake. Apparently, she watches how he eats, even. :) I think it's funny..and cool. My little mama in training.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Round & round & round we go...

My belly, that is. I was really depressed the other day after posting a photo of my belly on the "Pregnant Pubsters" thread on Two Peas. I am huge...bigger or as big as people MUCH further along than I am. It didn't help matters that on Saturday I attended a baby shower of a friend in the ward (who is due in early August), and her belly was smaller than mine. Not only hers, but the two others who were due BEFORE me. I know that I get big (thanks for the genes, mom)...but I really thought this pregnancy would be different. I was so much bigger with Ally so much sooner. But I've definately made up for that. I am 135 pounds (10 pounds gained)and looking like I'm either carrying multiples or much further along than my 24 weeks.

I wasn't OK with this until yesterday. I got tired of whining to deaf ears. (Greg, my sister, my mom....) I got tired of feeling sorry for myself when I should be nothing but grateful that we're being blessed with another child. I'm not sure anything in particular got me away from feeling sorry for myself. But I'm glad to be over it. SO what if I'm big? It won't be like this forever. :) So here I am, in all my glory.....